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[30 Oct 2004|12:25pm]
Im so dumb.
oh man.
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[29 Oct 2004|10:41pm]
Youre going to kill me
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[03 Oct 2004|10:15pm]
i am so in love

oh man.

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[17 Sep 2004|01:23am]
Im going to pretend for a second that I am as beautiful as you.
that didnt last long.
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Hes the only one for me. [15 Sep 2004|01:00pm]

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You walked to my house at 1 in the morning. youre CRAZY. [14 Sep 2004|11:52am]
I am so confused.
i didnt ask for this, i dont NEED this.
I finally was getting my head screwed back on, and my feet back on the ground.
Everything is only getting better with seth.
but the you came.
why did you have to tell all of those things? I dont want to be the only one you think about
i dont want to be the one you want to spend all of your time with
i didnt ask to be someone who you insist is the best worst thing that every happened to you.
i didnt need you to look me right in the eyes and tell me that i am the most amazingly funny girl
youve ever met, and you want to be around me always, and touch me all the time.
and tell me all the little things i do
that drive you crazy because you cant kiss me.
I am so glad you came over last night so i could tell you that im IN LOVE with my boyfriend
and although all the fantasies i play in my head of he and i together and nice
i dont want that. And it wouldnt last. I have my real love. I have my forever
and hes been my everything.
I told him hes an amazing friend. and its not that im not attracted to him. hes fine as hell (lauren and jackie, you MUST MEET HIM) but its just that i am not stupid enough to throw away this AMAZINGLY wonderful thing that i have
with the only guy i can see myself spending my life with. SETH.
My dramatic life.
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[08 Sep 2004|10:47am]
i need winter clothes.
please send money.
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#1: stop letting you effect the mood of my day. [05 Sep 2004|11:49pm]
you could slit my throat
and with my one last gasping breath
id appologize
for bleeding on your shirt.
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[27 Aug 2004|11:34pm]
Tonight, while i was driving home
I was praying someone would hit me and send me to the hospital
Just to see if youd care about me THEN.
Just to see how long youd stay by my side
Or if youd even care at all.
Some times i wish i could just disappear
and leave you missing me.
but wait...."you just dont miss people"
oh yeah, i forgot.
silly me.

ps. thank you for loving me in the times where its most convenient for you. How selfless
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[10 Aug 2004|04:22pm]
if i knew all the words
i would write myself out of here.
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Misquito Bites. [05 Aug 2004|12:21pm]
Right leg: 12
Left leg: 13

i want to die. it itches like fire.
and i scratch until i bleed...
and then scratch scabs off...and then scar.
(i know, wonderful story)
omg. shoot me.

I have them on the sole of my feet....wtf is that?!
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[02 Aug 2004|10:08am]
i saw whoever and whats his face go to white castle yesterday night....*blinks*
it was entertaining. I dont recommend spending 6 dollars to see it. but i didnt pay for myself so it was ok.
afterward all the retards i was with were like...lets get high and go to white castle. some people are so dumb and easy to brain wash. seriously....how stupid can you be?
anyways. Im ungrounded as of today. (hoorah). now i can actually drive myself places. and as for my curfews...i need to do something about those. they are bugging me. i almost never came home later then 1 or heard any complaints about what time i was coming in at night until that one night i came in at 4. so i want them to make them go away and ill just tell them i wont come in that late ever again or they can reground me.
so its hot outside thankyouverymuch. its about time.
im going to go home and put on a mini skirt and trapce around like a girly girl and take a shower and look really cute for no reason in partucular. i like doing that.
im not really sure what i am up to tonight...but im sure its something that will keep me enormously entertained.
ok bye.
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[31 Jul 2004|08:44pm]
movie tonight with my woman and my man...and all my other men.
i own all the men. mwah.

i went to look at my room that i am going to be staying at for a while while i go to college....the woman who owns the home is rather excentric....and thats ok really. BUT her friend jackie who looks like the freaky guy from the goonies...that im not so ok with. while she was there she said something about corrupting me and gummed some cookies. i almost pissed my pants (she smelled like balogna). When she left the room lauren and i mocked her. (heyy you guuyyys)
anyways. im scared. so when she comes over im going to lock myself in my room...or leap out my window or something. Throw myself into the revine at the end of the street. super!! well. im leaving.
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[22 Jul 2004|09:54am]
what i really meant to say
is im sorry for the way
i am.
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[20 Jul 2004|03:08pm]
it was just one of those days where i needed starbucks. and ALOT of it.
and then blast music in the car while im driving so people stare.

and then go home and take a nap. and hopefully be woke up by a call from you saying you want me to come over. Because youre one of the only things i look forward to in my day.

its just one of those days.
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[16 Jul 2004|11:02pm]
leave it to the stupid stupid people of michigan to sell EVERY car i was even moderatly interested in.

Hm. I lose.

I want to see jaclyn tomorrow. cause its her day of birth and the celebration of it. Happy birthday jackie. :-p
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[14 Jul 2004|02:15pm]
So here are my options, i cant decide. :-/

-97 Sebring Coupe with 92k, sunroof, CD player, and is "very clean"----$2650

-96 Sebring Coupe with 117k, CD player, power sunroof, and leather interior.----$3300

-94 Honda Civic DX Coupe with 85887k, AM/FM stereo, Manual "like new", "looks and runs great"----$3899

-1995 Honda Civic Hatchback with 125k, and 46 mpg...thats all it says. ha.----$2950

-93 Honda Civic Coupe with 124k, 40mpg, "runs and looks great", "perfect first car for student" 5 speed manual----$2900.

-95 Honda Civic Coupe with 123k aaand its an automatic in "good condetion". oookie. ----$2800

-94 Honda Civic Coupe with 130k its an automatic with a sunroof. "great condetion"----$2600

-95 HOnda Civic EX with a "new" motor, CD player, sunroof and it "runs great"----$2850

-94 Honda Civic EX Coupe with 133k, 5 speed manual with new brakes/tires/muffler, power moonroof, pioneer single CD player with 12" subwoofer, Viper alarm system, no air condetioning (but i HATE AC anyways) "still in good condetion" "great for a student"----$2600

-92 Honda Accord EX with...some miles. it doesnt say how many. Its a 5 speed manual, dual exhaust, neon, CD player with sub, wood dash, alloys with "larger tires" and tints. ----$2999

-96 Chrysler Cirrus with 103k, "no rust at all" an after market CD player, brand new tires----$2500

-90 Volkswagen Cabrio with 105k, convertible, with black leather interior, 5 speed manual and a CD player. It has a roll bar, so it being convertible is ok. :-p----$2800. heh, its so cute.

-96 Eagle Talon. and thats all i know about this car.

-94 Mazda MX6 LS Coupe, New engine/brakes/tires, its loaded and has a sunroof.----$2850
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[10 Jul 2004|12:18pm]
i got my hair cut i got my hair cut i got my hair cut.
its short, whoo.

and i keep losing weight....:-/
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oh MAN [08 Jul 2004|11:56am]
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ode to work: [07 Jul 2004|09:22am]
If it would make time in this grey oblivion
move any faster i would number
the tiles seperating my eyes from daylight
i would wrap myself in scottch tape
five times over until i couldnt breathe
and the pixelated bordum would tame me
somewhere else.
If it would get me to the end any quicker
i would run laps around this building
containing its drab grey walls and all matter of "responsibility" inside
until i was breathing so hard the building collapsed
simply from a breath
or it sank deep into the blackness of the earth from the trenches id worn
in the ground from my marathon of steps.
if i could displace myself i would be anywhere but here
for foutry hours a week i would do anything but sit
alone at this desk with limited features in the center
of a drab room filled with the static humm of
electronic machinery lit in the flaw revealing florecent lights
i would be abywhere but in this building where
total nothingness was seemingly created and flourishes
i would rather be somewhere where the sunshine exists
and a window as well to see it with
somewhere i can use creativity to create something
instead of using it to invent unique ways to keeps ones
mind entertained when total meltdown is imminent.
if i could leave here and continue collecting profit i
wouldnt even stop in, i wouldnt even visit.
i need a vacation.
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